Shit Nobody Reads

/Been here before
Been here before
Been here before
Been here before

Been here before
Been here before

Been here before couldn’t say I liked it
Where do I start writing all this down
Just let me plunge you into my world
Can’t you help me be un-crazy

Name this for me, heat the cold air
Take the chill off of my life
And if I could I’d turn my eyes
To look inside to see what’s coming

It comes alive
It comes alive
It comes alive
And I die a little more
It comes alive
It comes alive
It comes alive
Each moment here I die a little more
Ooh, i die i die i die a little more

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive 
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away

Been here before
Been here before
Been here before
Been here before

Been here before
Been here before

I’m frantic in your soothing arms 
I cannot sleep in this down filled world
Found safety in this loneliness
But I cannot stand it anymore

Cross my heart hope not to die
Swallow evil, ride the sky
I lose myself in a crowded room
You fool, you fool, it’ll be here soon

It comes alive
It comes alive
It comes alive
And I die a little more
It comes alive
It comes alive
It comes alive
Each moment here I die a little more
Ooh, i die i die i die a little more

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive 
Then the unnamed feeling
Treats me this way
And I wait for this train
Toes over the line
Then the unnamed feeling
It takes me away, it takes me

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive yeah
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away
Yeah, it takes me away

Get the fuck out of here
I just wanna get the FUCK away from me
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I hate it all, why why why me?

I cannot sleep with a head like this
I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I wanna hate it all away

(Solo)

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive 
Then the unnamed feeling
Treats me this way
Then I wait for this train
My toe the ro… o’er the line, yeah
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away, yeah it takes me away

Then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away/

Liver, lungs
Settling dues
That the heart can’t pay

Self-realization
Comes with self-destruction

It’s actually funny how
You kill yourself to live 

Should I feel guilty?

Am I at fault here?

I don’t even know, yet somehow I feel that I am and I feel like shit about it.

I never asked for any of this.

Can I have some closure at the very least?

One
Step
At a time

One
Handhold
After hand

Hold

Slip
And it becomes a tangled mess too much to bear

In my room.
Room for improvement?
Is there any more space?
Space. Place. Face.
Base?
Complexity is overrated.
Subtlety is ofttimes overstated.
Muted?
Can’t we, or do we just choose not to?
Order.
Ordered.
Hors d’œuvre?
Blurb.
Feed your mind.
Is it really better to know?
Ignorance is bliss.
Miss.
This.
Bris?
Rite.
Right.
Left to wallow, a pig cleans itself in mud.
Who are we to say what is clean?
Lean. Mean. Bean.
Seen.
Foreseen.

From angelfire, to multiply, to livejournal, and now, to this.

This will serve, as all the others had, as a repository for my thoughts.

How long I’ll be using this - or if at all- is anybody’s guess.